first of all. I want to say congrats.
Congrats that you open my corner.
it is really hurt to let go when you deeply in love to your BF, specially if your attached to him.
you must always bear in mind that, you are responsible on the feelings you have right now.
second, accept that the relationship is end. what ever happened, it already happen.
let go, and move-on. it is but natural to cry so loud, but remember, it is not the end of the world.
It is very hard to let go, but i did it and made it.
In my part, it is hard really,believe it or not i'm still a virgin at age 35. i'm now 36. and its really difficult to accept that, I thought my ex bf is the ONE, but everything turn into a whorl. imagine that, everyone admires me, i have the looks, and single, stable job, earn high salary, professional, good values, only that i don't know how to cook, i'm good in bed, and healthy... but still he left, he left me, when i asked him, "Kelan mo ako pakakasalan" he answered me, "hindi pa ako handa" and when I asked him again his bestfriend (girl) answered "hindi daw siya nauubusan ng babae", from there he never communicate with me. everything turn into a whorl. i can't sleep, eat and work peacefully.
A month later after that scenario, here I am.